I treasure that I can know Him in this generation. Through my life journey, I know that God has a plan for me. Though I may face turmoils, difficulties and trials, but with Him I can move on. When I first came to 701 in Chinatown, I was very young, around kindergarten, I came because my sister came. I believe I did enjoy the time there. I did watch those slides there before, whether I was preached to, I do not remember.
When I moved from Chinatown, we didn’t keep touch, but eventually met some brother and sister passing out flyers in chinatown about the classes at 123. So we went there.
Though I went to classes and day camps, but I did not believe in around after grade 5 or so. In around high school, I was invited to come to Sundays more, because I didn’t join, which led me to come every Sunday. Eventually I started coming to more meetings. However, when I joined the meeting, I didn’t know how to involve myself. I didn’t sign, pray, etc.
In 2006, I got baptized, as I shared in a previous post, it was hard.
Then in 2008, I finally started to be able to sing in meetings and voice out a bit. In 2010 I went on a trip to Calgary with brothers and sisters. Unfortunately in 2015/2016 my spirit fell.
I am glad that I still continued to come to meetings. I do not know how brothers and sisters felt when my spirit fell. I still felt the same care and support. During this point, I didn’t seemed to care about drawing near to Him, I didn’t sing to him. I didn’t involve in meeting, including small grouping time.
In 2018 was when I started having some feelings, at first it was much. Eventually I shared to some brothers; I’ve started to feel it much more. Starting earlier this year I’ve started to pray the prayers especially part 3 and included this certain feeling to overcome it. Doing the prayers became stable for me now.
In April, I felt the needs of my Spirit, then I’ve decided that I cannot let my spirit be in the state it was in. So now I am trying to focus on my spirit; help me to once again be involved in the meetings and draw close to Him daily.